There’s so much going on in my head right now and it actually sucks. I feel like I have no one in my life, or at least, nobody who cares about me the way I do about them, I swear every relationship or friendship is always me holding it together, the effort is always me and I’ve honestly had enough, even the very few people I thought would always be here are slowly disappearing and changing, and I can’t do it, I already have enough going on inside this dumb brain of mine. I want to just have nobody in my life. I feel like I’d hurt less but at the same time I’m so fucking lonely. I just want someone to love me the way I love them. I don’t want to have to question what we are, I don’t want to have to worry about whether people are just using me, I want to be able to fully trust someone and know that the respect and effort is mutual. I duno. Sorry. I’m rambling. Bye